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It seems like you're having some trouble. If you're in the US, call 988. https://www.fcc.gov/988-suicide-and-crisis-lifeline

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mental-labour

10 months ago

i am drinking myself into a coma because i want to kill myself

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mental-labour 10 months ago

i now know what the cold metal of a gun will feel like in my mouth

mental-labour 10 months ago

it's so easy, just pull the trigger

ita 10 months ago

i hope you're okay

pnnamerica 10 months ago

Alcohol is shit.

letslearntogether 10 months ago

🫂 https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/losing-someone-to-suicide

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mental-labour 10 months ago

yes lmao, thanks

mental-labour

10 months ago

my website looks basic af but at least no one can say it's stolen lmao

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andnow 10 months ago

It looks great!

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mental-labour 10 months ago

thanks :)

vashti 10 months ago

same lol :3

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iwillneverbehappy 10 months ago

What e-reader did you buy?

mental-labour 10 months ago

i got a boox note air3 that i've been wanting for a minute

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swiftred mental-labour

10 months ago

Thank you for the follow, I've enjoyed reading your writing so far

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mental-labour 10 months ago

thank you very much, glad you enjoy some of my stuff :)

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iwillneverbehappy 10 months ago

I'm glad to hear that you've had a pleasant start to the new year and that you've been learning languages - I love hearing about peoples' experiences with language learning and wish you the best of luck with both French and Spanish. Please keep us posted if you can!

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mental-labour 10 months ago

thank you friend, don't worry i'll be shitposting in french soon enough

mental-labour

10 months ago

sorry i haven't worked on my website in a while i'm learning french lol

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vashti 10 months ago

woah cool! I'm relearning French too :D! tell me if you ever want a french learning study buddy

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mental-labour 10 months ago

bet, i'm drunk purchasing french books right this second

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cruscc 10 months ago

désolé·e de l'apprendre 😔

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letslearntogether 10 months ago

Bruh...just put MC Solaar's Prose Combat on repeat until you can speak silky smooth French. That album's a classic.

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vashti 10 months ago

@letslearn, I legit think we listened to MC Solaar in high school French class lol

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letslearntogether 10 months ago

@vashti Oh snap, props to the teacher. 😄 I love that old-school, conscious French hip-hop.

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mental-labour

10 months ago

happy new years, nothing 2 lose but chains

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vashti 10 months ago

Hell yeah man >:-)!! I've never heard that phrase before, but I'm going to remember it

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tehuan 10 months ago

happy new years ! so true also

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tehuan pao-chingming

10 months ago

wow, your site is so incredibly interesting and informative ! i don’t know much about anything you talk abt on here but i’m super excited to read more :] lovely layout etc too !

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10 months ago

most of my yappings are on twitter (@luningningbao), but now i'm thinking about channeling all that yap-energy into actually writing things of some coherence and usefulness here. it'll mean less of my time devoted to doomscrolling and takes-having and more to cohering and honing my writing practice. much to think about! but i don't think i'll ever be free of twitter--i'm too terminally online!

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pao-chingming

10 months ago

just realising that the title i put for the homepage, "home: tapilók-bángon," automatically became the site's name here on my profile. changing that now to remove the "home" bit. i'm no good at coding!

pao-chingming 10 months ago

also: "tapilók" means to trip or fall down in a particularly clumsy way; "bángon" means to arise. the compound "tapilók-bángon" thus means something "slip and get back up," which i think suits me, an autistic ADHD'er, well. i'll add this explanation to the home page in a bit.

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pao-chingming mental-labour

10 months ago

(this is in reply to your message on my dashboard, w/c i accidentally deleted--whoops+sorry!) thank you!! right now it's just the two interviews here, but i'm working on another interview again with ka marco of the CPP--my first proper work in two years! i love your site as well btw! for the longest time i've just never written notes (ADHD &c), which is fine insofar as it's not so inimical as to make study worthless,

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pao-chingming 10 months ago

but i do think that it keeps the way i study somewhat disorganised, incoherent, and eclectic. back then i tried writing notes with my typewriter and by hand to varying--often non-optimal--results. i'm now trying to shift to typed digital notes, and seeing the stuff on your website has only reäffirmed that decision. my thanks again! warmest regards, pao

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pao-chingming 10 months ago

ps. i read your entry from the 10th inst. have you managed to find the second part of mr. greene's documentary yet? i have both parts alongside an earlier documentary on china (during the great leap, i think?), tibet, and north vietnam. i had one on cuba, too, but i've since lost it--at least i think so.

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letslearntogether 10 months ago

Both parts of One Man's China: https://archive.org/details/onemanschina Inside North Vietnam: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWnL3js6_uM Cuba Va: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvsavJ9UIXA Tibet in 1976: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4bTDTBsEAE

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mental-labour 10 months ago

I did find the second part of One Man's China on archive like they posted, but I'd be curious about that one you mentioned during the great leap forward

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mental-labour 10 months ago

I'm very glad you like my website and found it somewhat helpful :)

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pao-chingming 10 months ago

letslearntogether: thank you for the links!

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pao-chingming 10 months ago

mental-labour: i'll upload the documentary either on youtube, google drive, the internet archive, or all three. i think youtube would be the most convenient, but i worry about it being taken down by the copyright-holder. "cuba va" was itself taken down a few years ago on youtube. i'll see later. regards &c &c

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pao-chingming 10 months ago

the same channel to whose uploads letslearntogether linked also has the documentary i was referring to, "China!" which was in fact released in 1965, a year before the cultural revolution and well after the great leap, so no need for me to upload it myself: https://youtu.be/kAUQTBrWuJY?si=XswFNYvYdPCC-1d6

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pao-chingming 10 months ago

one last thing: mr. greene's personal relationship with communism on its own is very interesting. it seems he started out as a sympathiser of the various anti-imperialist movements and projects around the world, including those of china, vietnam, and cuba, and through his travels and involvements matured to become a journalist and propagandiser--i use that last term positively--of the edgar snow-type.

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pao-chingming 10 months ago

in a lecture (i'll link it here if i ever find it again), he praises the cultural revolution as a sort of "self-correcting mechanism" of the chinese people, and emphasises the need for more self-corrections in the future. i don't think he ever really matured ideologically in the proletarian sense though, as right after saying that he says that the arrest of the gang of four was one such self-correction.

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pao-chingming 10 months ago

his support for capitalist restoration in china naturally earned him the ire of antirevisionist groupings elsewhere. his talk at the uni of waterloo actually became a focal point of an antirevisionist struggle in the same uni: https://www.marxists.org/history/erol/ca.firstwave/cpc-china-week.htm. not sure what became of him in the end, but he was an interesting guy all in all

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mental-labour 10 months ago

Well, as Mao says, no one can be 100% communist haha

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letslearntogether 10 months ago

@pao-chingming: You're welcome! The one making the copyright strikes is probably: https://www.concordmedia.org.uk/ through their YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@ConcordMediaUK They still try to sell those videos on Vimeo.

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letslearntogether 10 months ago

As for Mr. Greene, it would seem that he wasn't liked by the "libertarian right" much either. Example: https://web.archive.org/web/20101102052359/http://libertarian.co.uk/lapubs/forep/forep016.pdf ...I genuinely wonder what the author of that article thinks of Operations Gladio, Condor, etc., but I digress.

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mental-labour 10 months ago

all my homies hate concord media

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tehuan mental-labour

11 months ago

such a sick layout and everything you write & share on here is so cool n thoughtful.. love the site :]

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mental-labour 11 months ago

thank you kindly :D

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