Neocities allows anyone to create a free web site to express themselves. Want to create your own awesome site? Join us!
Late night rambling! Let me know if you can connect with any of this, I'd love to talk about it!! <3
OH and I changed the background of this month's diary! I like the light twinkling effect ; __ ;
I think it's very natural that you'd want there to be little discrepancy between how you perceive yourself & how others perceive you & you shouldn't think too hard about it. I normally feel the opposite of the feeling you've described & feel as though I'm in a perpetual state of change.
@vashti I agree on both accounts tbh!! It's something I should let go and not feel I have to justify to others. It's something I've been trying to unlearn, but for a whole time I lived like I had something to prove and I can fall into those patterns sometimes. The last few years I feel like I've changed a lot to, but mostly for better. It's fascinating to watch yourself grow over time, just like everything else does!
I think rather than seeing it as some sort of justification, you should frame it as authenticity; You're wanting to be authentic & true & there is nothing wrong with that. In fact, it's commendable & shows that you have self confidence.
I feel really similarly. I often want people to know the truest version of myself, but I let the worst parts of myself out due to mental illness or sleep deprivation or some other silly thing. And then I feel like I have to work really hard to let people know the "truest" version of myself again even if the part of myself I displayed is technically me too.
It's very obvious with family and friends I've known for years. My tastes and interests and personality evolved quite a bit within the last two years, and as a result, I get a lot of recommendations for things I would've liked as a teenager that I've outgrown now.
@vashti, you are very kind and I appreciate your thoughtful insight. This is a beautiful way to reframe and you're right! At its core it's all about wanting to express the most authentic version of yourself, huh? Thank you, I will keep this in mind!! ♡♡
Are you perhaps worried that others won't accept your changes? Like someone might say, "oh no, I liked the old version better!" Do you need reassurance that, no matter how your beliefs evolve, you can still be loved for the Essence of Sarah at your core? You dont have to answer here and maybe I'm totally off the mark. Just something to think about.
@ophanimkei the shift from your teen years into emerging adulthood can especially be rife with change imo. It's a big time for exploring your identity and since others aren't privy to your internal world, they still have that particular impression of you. It can be hard!!
@ophanimkei it can be hard feeling like you're being authentic when burdened with things like mental illness and sleep deprivation too... it's easier said than done, but I think it's important to be forgiving of yourself for the times you've been hurting ♡
@vivarism hmm, this is interesting food for thought, I appreciate your questions!! That might be a part of it, and I have felt that fear of rejection in the past, but I think in this example it's like the fear of being perceived as flakey lest I "justify" myself?
Hi, thank you for reaching out to me about this, you're very kind! I'll keep you posted about whether I decide to join or not if that's okay! ♡
That latest track is awesome. I love the part with... the pink notes (sorry, not a music person to give you proper nomenclature :D ).
Ahhhh thank you Vashti, I'm so happy you like it, and thank YOU and Maple for organizing this as well! I can't wait to get reading! ;u;
The book is really good so far; I'm about 150 pages in. I hope you enjoy it too
@vashti Favicons really help to tie things together, I like to add them when I remember! ;u; But yay that's good to hear! I've heard great things about Crime and Punishment and that it's a page turner, so this will be fun!!
art videogames music programming personal games anime food writing cats blog gaming movies books comics design photography animation horror fashion technology game programacion coding furry html portfolio education manga sports drawing ocs musica poetry web fun history programing cute animals science philosophy film tech computers literature arte school travel kpop politics reading youtube retro pokemon cartoons minecraft memes gamedev internet roblox video videogame nature videojuegos illustration dogs comic 2000s test fantasy linux videos random blogging webcomic diary life news fanfiction gardening 90s business css nostalgia health stuff cars queer fandom worldbuilding idk tv learning arg fiction aesthetic love emo math software y2k journal kawaii cooking scifi space website silly lgbt graphics vocaloid homestuck javascript football marketing media stories oc sport pink ai funny commissions 3d development cat pixelart archive culture religion punk goth entertainment digitalart artist informatica dnd code webcore characters cool etc webcomics painting fanart educacion webdesign trans lgbtq films metal crafts graphicdesign rpg streaming comida me comedy html5 gay scene vaporwave computer story soccer cyberpunk roleplay hacking arts basketball sanrio it about sonic weird dance electronics oldweb psychology diy weirdcore reviews plants engineering aboutme indie friends ttrpg program languages cutecore cinema social discord testing originalcharacters editing information project guitar pets clothes ghchs nintendo zines rock community baking tecnologia vtuber study lain resume creativity language fnaf crochet aesthetics money makeup carrd shop series lifestyle photos everything futbol spirituality movie storytelling digital magic radio clothing vr architecture experimental beauty biology mlp fitness japan other japanese nothing blinkies sewing furries undertale occult shopping crypto vintage journaling chat info system apps blogs autism splatoon physics deportes cosplay coffee websites python ttrpgs shows webdevelopment profile juegos television free creative book thoughts wip research finance birds witchcraft bugs linguistics site cybersecurity fortnite rap dolls developer work pixels photo gamedevelopment dreams security transgender fansite meme band robots twine events astronomy lol online windows touhou deltarune toys android fanfic dog pizza family projects app alternative anything mathematics lore roleplaying breakcore personalwebsite all data links zonelets humor twitch puzzle interactive flowers privacy characterdesign fnf rp a scenecore gifs aliens no death dragons genshin teaching adventure fish home mentalhealth hobbies hobby singing deporte knitting cartoon noise english ffxiv bitcoin modding pixel tf2 sleep wiki vampires gallery mystery medicine bio awesome drawings gamedesign computing interests skateboarding theatre astrology hiking audio stamps podcast animations danganronpa hiphop robotics graphic swag java misc resources electronic estudiante car shrine girls js things doom lolita tvshows zine progamming mario chess communism socialmedia meow sleeping dreamcore none programas curso rpgs vent 80s law tarot tcc utau fandoms puzzles recipes enstars epic christianity journalism collecting old dancing paranormal gothic student tumblr wrestling help pc production moda closedspecies educational scratch ecommerce blender jfashion anarchism flash boardgames omori webdev computerscience clowns images gym crafting running homepage plushies essays translation pictures truecrime otherkin myself spanish monsters visualnovels god programar lesbian geography search southpark mythology baseball romance creepypasta objectshows maths poems miriadax travelling traveling tabletop plurality environment indiegames escuela shoes store kidcore college bts hardware realestate turismo podcasts vtubers dark piano css3 intro activism opensource species feminism multimedia trains yoga outdoors starwars lego shitposting dev forum techno services osc introduction cafe warriorcats informacion maps novels ocean chemistry petz cryptocurrency learn stars creepy cyber retrogaming kirby yes whatever gyaru blockchain pastel jewelry 3dmodeling weed tools foods gamer jazz construction collection fotografia text peliculas jpop salud weather persona horses vhs depression mobile transformers marvel insects event people tourism economics sound drugs musicals conspiracy surreal did digitalmarketing cv gatos restaurant cine homework vkei freedom filmmaking bfdi foss egl designing mcr bunnies furniture cricket novel tutorials estudio medical surrealism angels halloween dinosaurs world twitter service animales yaoi swimming rpgmaker networking practice bible class brasil args hi google animanga style fishing prompts hockey videoediting ropa cultura ideas tic therian grunge songs truth dj rats ecology artwork craft acting wedding analysis neocities socialism live desarrollo general guns noticias review alterhuman academic php tareas coquette edm libros collage historia sciencefiction lgbtqia modeling popculture pop birthday tecnology datascience racing drama trading tea water skating videogaming bot tennis quotes ghosts frontend women cs sharks cleaning hair society viajes conlang jjba cycling glitch cryptids revival company videography jesus neopets future shitpost ux frutigeraero hellokitty soft yuri university erotica csgo kin advertising stickers anarchy photoshop index plural brazil ar ambient library idols scary genshinimpact church jobs supernatural mods desing camping synthesizers instagram bikes christian hack server training frogs theater programmer startrek schoolproject house rhythmgames pruebas nerd halflife apple disney evangelion theory programa designer aviation tattoos rainbow 3dprinting studying author conlangs 4chan visualnovel lostmedia entretenimiento animes ios chatting miscellaneous dating anthropology trabajo tokipona interactivefiction tarea blood practicas sculpture building paganism finalfantasy anthro jokes shrines hardcore kids volleyball healthcare otaku download programs knowledge cult spooky skincare magick graffiti chill creatures new theology illustrations youtuber character bsd webseries batman exercise retrogames unix proyecto archives educativo vegan crd meditation beer sustainability crime generator something sociology play industrial overwatch bl miku gis articles bands map chaos yugioh nft retrocomputing geocities silliness colors party visualkei academia cards joke friendship communication ciencia sites performance onepiece lolitafashion kandi statistics club analog sims hotel french garfield animal gender ultrakill writer zelda literatura vampire disability facts creation unblocked shit tiktok developing pet stupid geek netflix self 3dart rambling riddle superheroes mylittlepony electronica rave vtubing garden archival webring poop vlog analoghorror cheese agriculture men network marxism musicproduction tattoo content digimon animalcrossing chiptune mushrooms blue os tokusatsu alt words notes esoteric green dungeonsanddragons satire magazine mecha eating conlanging liminal martorell repair time directory commission spongebob oldroblox mtg label vidya tutorial studio tips military vrchat kink voiceacting iot lofi genealogy happy ui academico original e steam dc black charity city shoegaze database guide doctorwho vinyl private products spiderman professional draw hyperpop streamer cringe biography minimalism casino ceramics ict travels selfshipping folklore bass doodles arduino wow assignment motorcycles handmade 1 mcyt solarpunk originalcharacter war automotive otp trabajos selfship prueba gif underground talking farming hell cities creativewriting evil the musician parody secret medieval esports ranfren sad christmas government portal archiving shifting netart c pjsk rants woodworking
Experiment or not, I love the Time-Traveling Banjo track.