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I saw the moon a couple of nights ago when it was full or near full & it brought you to mind. Somehow, the moon has seemed farther away from me than usual.

it warms my heart beyond words when ppl tell me the night sky reminds them of me (≧◡≦) and you're totally right, the moon is at her apogee rn, the farthest distance from earth

im sorry you and your friends had to go through all of that. u should feel proud though setting your boundaries. you did what was right for you and your health. them threatening to end their own life was way too far. i just hope they end up getting the help they need. maybe this interaction was what they needed to open up their eyes, realize where they were wrong and what they need to change. pls take care

I'm really sorry that things didn't go as well as they should have. Like bonecharms said, you absolutely did the right thing, and yhou should feel proud for setting those boundaries!! Boundaries are almost always difficult to voice, I know I still have problems with that. I am proud of u <3

i appreciate the reassurance from u both <3

surprise! new essay! my angstiest one yet!

I hope to see you blossom into even angstier work in time ♡♡♡ In all seriousness, I do envy those who can be angsty in an unselfconscious way. Sometimes it's hard for me to feel angry without trying to soften myself.

ty vashti <3 i still struggle with allowing myself to be fully angry too, i'm WAY softer irl. for months i debated if i should even bother writing essays, i feel like the combo of being angsty and not saying anything new comes off as obnoxious. although, i think one of the first authentic things i ever learned about myself is that i literally HAVE to be at least a little edgy, it's who i am, i'd go insane otherwise.

now that my site has slowly become p edgy i might as well keep going. i half-deliberately set my own precedent and what other ppl expect of me. plus i refuse to delete things when i hate them, so i'm not able to run from those expectations. despite all my fears i think it's good that people expect me to be myself, whether they approve or not. i hope you're able to explore something like that that works for you too.