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in this 2006 moment I'm also gonna watch the movie Wristcutters which I probably haven't seen since 2006
fwiw, I enjoyed the format of this post even though it wasn't what you were intending. I also had an intense January for different personal reasons but same world events reasons as you. I am glad my words were a help. And I'm excited about zine therapy! I may do one. :)
zuck wazowski...i really loved this journal and i appreciate your openness and vulnerability. i've been having a lot of the same struggles and it's nice to know i'm not so alone
Thanks for the good feedback! I had intended it to be a month in review like "here's what I did" but it ended up being "here's what I thought about" and I can see how that is more relatable! I'll keep that in mind for future posts too. :)
sometimes I might have a little turn of phrase that's interesting and makes people think. and every time I send an email newsletter I get a bunch of replies that say they never thought of it that way and they're glad to get my perspective. and yet! I know that my ideas are useless.
My psychiatrist told me I shouldn't even entertain these thoughts because once I start feeling useless you know it just snowballs but like how do people actually fix this? how do people get over it? I'm a professional writer and I still can't get over it. I'm literally supporting myself with writ
Imposter syndrome can be fixed over time with an amazing DBT technique called "opposite action"
You can also try to categorize your thoughts into "helpful and true" vs "not helpful and not true" and do whatever you can to disregard and not entertain the latter
@plushspace thank you for a practical tip! I've heard a lot about DBT and it seems like I really need to engage in it. thank you, I will try this!
Yo i am so glad i could share this amazing tip with you. Its so easy to feel like a slave to our thoughts but we have more free will and more control than we think. This also might sound wild but gut health can also directly effect mental health as well particularly flammatory foods. Next time low self esteem strikes try also clocking the foods you ate around the time of having those thoughts vs times you felt good
It is not at all a problem that you have these thoughts/feelings. Give them space and gentleness and they lose their power. I just try to remember that the self doubt itself is part of the creative process, and that if I keep going on the project and give my feelings space to come and go, it usually resolves on its own.
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So far I've found: DC themed silhouette side-scroller, a simple watercolor blog layout, grey scale paper plane blog layout, simple HTML resume layout, an entire fansite for the Iliad (!), sky layout (scroll down to see the ground at the bottom)
hot air balloon grunge blog layout, hot air balloon whimsical blog layout, paper journal blog layout, car driving through a forest blog layout, fairy tale newspaper blog layout, folder FULL of QBEE things but no HTML :(
ladybug blog layout, DC metro blog layout, illustrated city blog layout, alien abduction blog layout, space cadet/rocket layout, an incredibly simple text-based blog layout, flying books theme, snowman/winter layout, illuminated manuscript themed, storybook themed, found the QBEE HTML files but they are in separate folders from all the images
splash pages: several papercraft/scrapbook inspired, vinyl early 90s styling, static list of links (pre-carrd sites!), video game world map inspired, simplified/boxy layout
this list isn't even half of what I found, a lot of my designs are split into header/index/footer php files that I can combine to see in HTML. I am going to modernize some of them and put them up as free layouts. They're all quite simple but might make a good starting point for people trying to learn.