memento mori always helps when it comes to the bigger picture -- I wish you luck in your pursuits!
試されない生は生きるに値しない -- better to live on your own terms as best you can, than to work a slow march to death. As long as one can have a simple meal and a place to sleep with water running sometimes: that's all one needs for a bountiful life. Godspeed! (reminds me of the band: https://youtu.be/7EGTD7azzWk )
creating sth doing labour is challenging but it's a good practice to use time wisely i believe
It seems the most pleasurable moments of life come from creating things. As long as you have something to work on earnestly -- some goal to progress towards, whatever it may be -- then the unhappy days are far less likely, maybe. Good luck!
I reiterate that to create something, whether it is digital or not (sewing, mending, circuiting et cetra), is my salvation from my pain of existence. Thank you.
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