I've had similar thoughts as your latest entry. In my darkest moments, it felt like it was more selfish for other people to expect someone to live just to ease their own lives. It's a sensitive and complex issue and it's hard to explore it in a way that isn't damaging or triggering. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Hope this comment isn't prying or anything. And most of all hope you're doing well, as well!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!! omg so happy to see this on my feed. look forward to the next time you feel inspired to update!!