oh no T_T that's so terrifying ... life goes on though, i believe in you :o) sending you good vibes from an unknown internet person!
https://www.etsy.com/pt/listing/1665624170/2-onda-rgg-pre-venda-de-nishiki-inverno buy it for me or else...
one step further: remove spit from every humans body so nobody can 'spit on that thang' again
you SHOULD start a crowdfund!! i won't be able to support it though because i dont have a digital bank account or stuff like that, but if it will help u get out of the situation, maybe try it!