it's a hard enough dealing with the complex feelings that come after loss, my heart goes out for your situation because it seems particularly intense. you come off as very brave and insightful here. sending so much love your way
Writing this actually made me feel a lot lighter. I thought I was going to abandon this website for months, maybe not
Be good to yourself, even in the bad times. I'm not a smart rat and I dont always know what to say, but I'll be around if you just wanna vent or something.
I don't know you and you don't know me but I still wanted to send my condolences because I know so well how fucking hard true loss is. Remember there's no "correct" amount of grieving, do it your way and let it take as long as you need. Weeks, months, years, all completely valid. One day (and night...) at a time.
Take all the time you need, remember to be good to yourself, even in the bad times! My heart is with you.
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