Tough to hear you're going through a difficult time. That must be horrendous. I'm confident that many people can learn to live with childhood abuse. Perhaps you can talk about it with someone you trust, including about contemplating suicide. Or talk about it on a suicide hotline. Wish you the best, good luck, take care.
For me, even if I feel differently immediately after writing an entry, I'm still glad that I did. It really helps to get this shit out there, whether it's particularly articulate or not. Write whichever way is the best for you to get your feelings and words down in a way that screams "you".
I feel it. Your own entries sound irrational at times even though you fully understand the context at which it was written in.
i think its a good idea to delete everything if u think it's necessary, i did the same years ago and have never regretted it. i hope u feel better soon
You have my love and support. If you ever want to talk, I'm more than happy to talk. I mean it!