Beautiful, i find it super hard to respond as i ended up relating harder than i expected... you're a great writer :)
I really liked the way your formatted/sorted your thoughts in this one. It made the mundane seemed charged with meaning & I think your "confessional" & not "literary" style as you put it really lent itself to your writing.
"An observer of all things," hm? I've begun to feel similarly in these past years. I thought my life's purpose was to pursue happiness, but that is often unattainable to me, so now I see my life as a catalog of expereiences; good & bad, I just want to feel, to experience & observe. I understand what you're saying & see nothing sad about it.
I think you're right that writing comes from loneliness. Writing is just talking to ourselves at the end of the day. I wonder if I'd have started writing if I'd had a many friends growing up? Anyways, pleasure to read.
@vashti I don't really see anything sad about it either, but i find it interesting how people interact with what i say or do, especially if i don't really get where they're coming from, like in the case of that teacher. I'm glad you relate, you put it very well! I've always said my ultimate dream is being human, which means to observe and feel in earnest and experience [x]
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was thinking that also ! ^^^