I understand being surrounded by people who aren't helpful to your cause. I understand blacking out too but I'm dissociative. I hope you're able to give yourself a break, even if just for a little bit. Sometimes you gotta step back from it all and that it's totally okay to do so.
I empathise with the feeling of cruelty. It can be a shell one falls into as protection. Perhaps that is the shadow around you.
Here's to better days, Blue โก I don't want to overstep anything here, so feel more than free to ignore or delete this, but I think rather than cruelty, that feeling you're speaking of may be jadedness & that is only natural & you are not to blame for that. I hope your pain eases soon.
no worries, you aren't overstepping anything. i guess i am pretty jaded, tbh. its a little reassuring knowing thats it not anything strange, though. thanks for the kind words, i think i just need to slow down a little
what you need is to re-focus yourself. couple of matches in a good ol' fighting games may help you slow down
Exactly! I get the same way & need to... I don't know, kind of go back to myself. I think rest & slowing down will do you good (oหโกหo)
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